Summary: A silent question rings in my head. Why did we choose this path instead?
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In your mind you ask why the sudden change.
I tell you, it’s nothing at all nor anything strange.
But sometimes I wonder if you see through my lies
As I can see through yours, hidden in disguise.
You ask me the famous why and what,
Yet I cannot tell you what is stirring my gut.

I wanted to be someone who could turn your frown around.
I wanted to be someone who could give you stable ground.
I knew something was terribly wrong
And the feeling of worry was quite strong
Yet every step I took towards you
You took five steps backward.

That one day when I was feeling alone and deserted
A handful of people tried only once to give me their hands.
When I refused they quickly packed their happiness and fled.
You see, I had an epiphany that very day
Of how distant I was and how close you all were.
How painful it was to watch from afar.
I could never cross the line between them and myself.
How foolish I have been, to even attempt such a deed.
Maybe I grew blind because of my throbbing need.

You wanted to be someone who would be my one true friend.
You wanted to be someone who would be there till the end.
You knew something was agitating my very core.
And hoped to pick me up from the blackened floor.
Yet every step you took towards me
I took five steps backward.

In my mind I ask when this began.
Lying was never really part of the plan.
I wonder when your lies began
And when mine will ever end.
A silent question rings in my head.
Why did we choose this path instead?